[A quiet ache stirred in his chest, and he stubbornly closed his eyes, his arm settling over Bedivere's with the blanket between them. Until he drifted off to sleep, his ear was tuned to the sound of Bedivere breathing - since when had he been able to trust someone like this?
Even his dreams were a confusing jumble of past and present. Here was Odasaku, saying something so ridiculous with a straight face and making Dazai laugh. Here was Odasaku with five newly-orphaned children, taking them in even if he didn't have an immediate gameplan. Here was Atsushi fishing him out of the barrel on the morning of his entrance examination, the most curious blend of sass, gullibility, and skepticism bundled around open sincerity. Atsushi, escaping with Q's doll after a very long fall from the Guild's airship, lying on the ground heavily injured until Dazai found him. Atsushi, who went through all that just as Dazai betted he would, because he had the admirable quality of struggling against adversity for the sake of doing what was right.
He'd be in a somber mood when he wakes up unexpectedly an hour or so before dawn, in need ]of a glass of water.
no subject
You too... Bedivere.
[A quiet ache stirred in his chest, and he stubbornly closed his eyes, his arm settling over Bedivere's with the blanket between them. Until he drifted off to sleep, his ear was tuned to the sound of Bedivere breathing - since when had he been able to trust someone like this?
Even his dreams were a confusing jumble of past and present. Here was Odasaku, saying something so ridiculous with a straight face and making Dazai laugh. Here was Odasaku with five newly-orphaned children, taking them in even if he didn't have an immediate gameplan. Here was Atsushi fishing him out of the barrel on the morning of his entrance examination, the most curious blend of sass, gullibility, and skepticism bundled around open sincerity. Atsushi, escaping with Q's doll after a very long fall from the Guild's airship, lying on the ground heavily injured until Dazai found him. Atsushi, who went through all that just as Dazai betted he would, because he had the admirable quality of struggling against adversity for the sake of doing what was right.
He'd be in a somber mood when he wakes up unexpectedly an hour or so before dawn, in need ]of a glass of water.